I Still Can't Believe That She's Gone

Got a hole in my heart as big as a stone
And it aches with the memory of a love that is gone
Should of told her I need her, now she'll never know
So I sit in this darkness and it won't let me go
I should forgive myself, but I'm not that strong
And I still can't believe that she's gone

So I wrote her a letter three days in a row
And I filled it with feelings that I never could show
And I sealed it with kindness and whispered a prayer
Now it sits in a dresser at the top of the stairs
I should control myself and I know that it's wrong
But I still can't believe that she's gone

If life were as simple as words on a page- I would write that whole chapter all over again
But it's more like a candle with a flickering flame
And the shadows like memories fade

If just for a moment she were here by my side
I would share all the secrets that I'd hidden inside,
But she probably knew them.  She always could tell
When my life was in Heaven or Hell
I can't convince myself what I want is gone
Something inside of me keeps holding on
I should control myself, but I'm not that strong
And I still can't believe that she's gone
I still can't believe that she's gone
I still can't believe that she's gone

Keith Winston
Written for my Grandmother